words (almost) lost

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I'm finally going through the unread emails in my inbox, all 629 of them, some dating back to 2005; and I find these lines from Renu as she was plugging away at her thesis in 2008...

And the point is to live everything.
Live the questions now,
And perhaps without knowing it
You will live along, someday into the answers.
- Rainer Maria Rilke

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